There is this little demon version of myself carrying a pitch-fork standing on my shoulders that whispers relentlessly in my ear, pestering me to start a "blog". So I'm giving in. I have this website, I may as well have a blog. I have a complicated relationship with "yapping" and "over-sharing" and "info-dumping". Complicated insofar as these were things I did with wanton abandon as a small child and was often chided for doing so by the adults around me. Still, I cannot help myself sometimes, even now. In fact, my entire adult life has been this struggle of balancing my innate urge to yap relentlessly, the paranoia that I am annoying everyone around me, and my immense need for everyone to like me. However, an explanation as to how I ended up the sad clown juggling these 3 contradictory inclinations would be far too depressing for this blog, I think. That's hardly the tone I'm trying to set. And despite the picture I've just painted, I'm not a particularly sad person. Just neurotic, obsessive, and hyper-sensitive. But generally happy (especially since figuring out I could treat my pmdd with 5-htp but that's a story for another blog entry? Nah, I am the last person who should be dishing out health advice. Although that is another thing I am unfortunately wont to do despite having 0 qualifications).
No, no. The last thing I want the blog to be about is my emotional issues. I am just getting this explanation out of the way to illustrate the tricky position I feel myself to be in. Do I put all my diry laundry out there and risk judgement? Or do I attempt to retain some kind of mystique surrounding myself, and reveal very little personal information on this blog... I hope to find a comfortable balance, in time.
Now, if you've gotten through all that: welcome to my blog! Another manifestion of my attempt to escape the social media trap but still remain glued to a computer screen at all times (this is a joke, I get outside fairly frequently. However, I just moved countries and don't really have any friends here yet so I suppose I am on the computer more than I used to be lately). I hope to share stuff about my foray into the indieweb world and also musings about developing my long-form rococo-sci-fi webcomic, which I have been working on since September of 2023. That was actually a super important month in my life as it's also when I cured my chronic-constipation by ammending my posture and as a result not only did I start to shit again, I began shitting out ideas as well, and thus As it is in Heaven was born!
I will go into depth regarding all of that, and more, later on. However. for now, I leave you with this.
Much love and great tidings,